Bitch Session

Now that I got last weeks post out of the way I need to do some venting. I've always got too much to say and not enough attention span to explain. So here goes...

• I've got no time to myself like blogging and I'm loosing precious sleep writing this. I have a standard job with commute. I go to school 4 nights a week. I volunteer monthly for the community and the most important thing is I do my best to spend quality time with my wife.
• I need to get over the fact my wife does not care to spend time with me outside the house while I'm dressed enfem. In my narrow perfect world everyone should love hanging out with amazon women like myself, but that's not her thing. She's never been interested in that lifestyle. I have to get through my head that couples can love each other and not be into the same shit. What is important is that She loves me, respects me and supports my decisions. The same thing goes for me to her. She does all that for her hobbies I barely show an interest for. I have to accept I can't share everything that's important to me. I guess this is like sports for some guys. We can't connect to everyone.
  
• I had to cut my nails because they were becoming obvious to coworkers and I've got too much house repair shit to fix before Winter hits hard.
  
• I really don't think I have enough clothes in both my wardrobes. I wish I could combine the two, but that goes back to my themes. I need to try every out fit I own and sketch what pieces I need to make awesome. I love fashion and I want to contribute my art, but I really feel I have a long road ahead of me to truly become the inspirations I admire the most.
• I need to loose weight because I don't want to keep trying to find XXL tops. I've already got enough problems locating shoes in a size 13. I can easily shave off a couple pounds to fit a dress versus the drastic surgery done to accommodate my tacky taste in footwear.
  

That's it for now.
Thanks

Cloud covers the hunt

One of my last post talked about my back problems getting in the way of going out. As of now I'm healing, but I don't want to strain myself. My back is no joke and suffering for fashion will be thrown in the closet until I've healed. So what do I do with a closet filled up in back breaking footwear? I go buy flats or will that is.

Why I haven't I done this so far? I'm roughly a size 12W or 13 in ladies shoes. I'm thankful Payless recognizes this size, but I'm always pissed that most of the shoe industry doesn't. Anygoo. My selection at home has never seen anything below a 2 inch heel. I feel my shoe size is a big strike against me. The higher the heel the better the illusion your foot size decreases. Since my back is falling apart I might as well rock boats and slip on some flats.

So I'm heading home today and the shopping center before my house has Payless that carries up to size 13. Not every store does that. I justify my shopping trip because it's cloudy/drizzling. Most people I think prefer not to shop in weather like this, but it seems they do...today...at 4pm I normally don't have a problem shopping. I'm typically fearless, but the winds were not blowing in my favor. A dirty contractor looking guy in the parking lot was facing the store and I know I stick out like sore thumb because it's brighter inside than the overcast weather outside. That made me uncomfortable big time. He left a minute or two later. What got me to give up was an elderly lady shopping in the same aisle. I also really didn't take to anything there today but I'll try again before Saturday before I go out.