Concluding Sensibility

As a guy who likes to get dolled up I have to say I'm embarrassed by the examples mainstream media depicts of us. I may be hypersensitive, but it embarrasses me to see crossdressing/any form of it depicted as comic relief. I can't help but want to walk out of the theaters when faced with it. To hear people laugh at it makes it harder for me to follow my dream of accepting myself completely. I know I'm apart of silent passion that hides under layers of shame and hypocrisy.

I dream every day of being open, proud and respected for my passion. It engulfs me so much that my priorities become second place. I can't stand this prison jump suite I have to wear everyday and for the most part I know my problem is trivial. I'm a perfectly average healthy looking male with a ton of great things going for me and yet I feel damned for not having enough freedoms to be myself. What the hell do I do? As a heterosexual married male with a very conservative career I can't branch away from it in fear of loosing everything. A dress is a dress, but put it on a guy and it's a noose.