Moaning Mondays

I find it funny that I'm never satisfied of who I am...for at least now. My addiction to Flickr is testament to that. I escape to many points of the world seeing the lives of others doing what they do. A transidentalist at heart. I find myself envious to the point of depression. I know I'm this is affecting me more because of where I work, what social standards I have to keep up and ALL the college work I have to complete. The sad thing is I don't like the job I have...but it pays. I don't like what I have to wear...but it keeps from being lynched. I don't give two flying asshats the degree I'm pursuing...but I get to finish this year vs. 3 years from now. I'm damned either way. Why the hell am I doing in this life just to get by? I know I'm Love my Wife, Family, and Friends, but it's really hard to love myself. I guess I'll keep pressing on like always.