Mac vs. PC

Not quite West Side Story but close enough.

Garage Manicure

As I look at my battered hands I see the cracks and cuts caused by my inner mechanic. The one that prefers not to pay someone else to repair his car because it's too expensive. Last Saturday I made my first attempt at repairing disk brakes. Through lack of time and proper parts (Auto store sold me the wrong ones) I barely got by replacing my rear rotors. A few cuts here and bashed thumb I manage to get the damn bastards off and fix what I can. I do derive some form of satisfaction with this and yet I'm torn by the expected conditions that I've gained manly points because of it. It ticks me off so much that I think I'll go window shopping once I wash the grease out from my bleeding hands.

Marriage Speedbump

So the past couple weeks have been a little rocky. My wife who accepts my unique quarks got a little overloaded. For the most part she's never been against my eclectic habits but she's never encouraged it. I would love the idea that she did, but that's not the case. In the past 2 1/2 years we've been together her method to dealing with my habits was to ignore it. Then last week things came to the brim and she finally spoke her mind. She only loves me when I'm not dressed up and she isn't sure she can be with a man that crossdresses? It hit me pretty hard because she never complained that it bothered her. We didn't know if this was the end of our marriage. It certainly felt that way. The biggest problem was she didn't understand why I would want to dress this way. I needed to get through to her that what I do isn't bad and every time I'd tried nothing would get through to her. In our long somber talk I mentioned a book that might be able to do that. However I only read the descriptions of it with great reviews. Fortunately it was good choice, because for the most part this trial has passed it's volatile stage.

My Husband Betty defused a scary moment for us and opened new communications. We still remain as a couple and for those "ladies" out there expressing the joys of a girlfriend like relationship with your wives, please understand that is not us. Our bond is in the traditional sense. I Tarzan, You Jane with just the occasional Tarzania swinging by.

Hulu, WB and Makeup

I've known about Hulu as a viable alternative to cable TV. It's one of the more successful online prime time access points to mainstream TV founded by NBC and Newscorp. It's become a real big convenience for my folks who managed to finally connect their computer via fancy big HD LCD. I'll let you look into more yourself to see the benefits, but as for me I wanted to see what alternatives have popped up since its growing success. One blip on the radar said The WB is in their Beta testing phase of this new site. So the first thing that jumps out to me is a series called...



This is new news to me, but I still say it's important to pass it on. As simple as it sounds it's quite nice to have a show with this perspective. I know many of need help in this matter. I've only watched the first two episodes but it's seriously going on my favorites.

Slow Sunday

It's Sunday and I'm sitting here trying to come up with something to do. I've already watched the second disc of Blood +. It's one of the many anime I'm enjoying right now through Netflix. I even watched Heroes that's been sitting on my DVR for the past 3 weeks. I would love to watch it sooner but college is more important. Hell I should be studying right now, but I'm blowing that off because I can.

So what do I do? The Wife and I thought we might paint our big computer room, but laziness struck. My other viable choices all involve spending money. I seriously can't do that right now. We did to much that yesterday to include looking at a new car for me. I have to say that I'm really proud of myself that by not deviating from guys clothes however tempting the women selection. I pine way too much for that stuff, that I'm neglecting my male ego appearance.

So Since we're in the midwest places like H&M are little out our ways to frequent and the two near by have only one place providing a male collection. That I have to say is smaller than my crappy closet. This just builds on to my desire for more wardrobe versatility and there was a little twist to the knife when I over heard a teenager with all her male siblings pick a pair of guys pants she liked and said she could wear it and that it's Ok because she's a girl. ~_~

Anywho, after that displeasing perusal through one of my hopeful shopping hot spots we came across a store you in the audience may know more about than I. My hat goes off for Forever 21 side project called Heritage 1981. Affordable fashionable guys clothing catering to the disposable income in mind. I seriously tore up the cardigans enough to torture my pompous narrow minded coworkers. I hate even mention his name. Let's just call him FratBoy. This guys makes it a point to drag other coworkers with him to make fun of whomever he decides to that day. I'm no longer a good target to him ever since I snapped and told him off, but my heart goes out to his latest victims. Anyways, two weeks ago I wore a cardigan he felt note worthy to comment. In a slight sadistic manner I bought more of these tops just to spite him. I'll never cave in and wear sports jersey to work even though he deems it glorious. Yes this man gets on my nerves way too much, but money is money and I'm not ready to quit this job to become a hobo as of yet.

Holding on...

Holding on...
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Last night my friend and I went out to what I guess could be our local watering hole. Novaks is a lesbian club in St. Louis that's set up pretty nice. We tend to gravitate there because it as normal as it gets for us. Gay clubs tend to be three degrees away from a fun house and trying to act nonchalant in a diverse place (ie. the mall) can become unsettling when you're not with a large group of friends (still searching).

For the most part I'm grateful being able to get out like this. I really wonder if some day I could integrate this into my life more often. I really haven't gotten much negative reactions from the public. The younger crowds are certainly more open or at least not so confrontational.